The Darkness - N Z FARA

Every day I try to be happy and wear a smile on my face, but every time I just can’t bring myself to do it and I don’t know why.

the little things that seem the easiest to do have become the hardest.

it feels like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulder and   it's pulling you down

it like somebody is taking over your body, taking over your mind, it likes the rain it comes crashing down when you least expect it and it leaves you in a mess, the feeling is like lighting it shocks you and create fear and panic, makes you feel like a zombie, alive but dead inside, numb and hopeless and sometimes you can’t control it

it’s the things that cause you a nightmare,

it’s the things that live inside you

it’s the things that you can’t get rid off

it’s the things that drive you crazy

it’s the reason you cry yourself to sleep at night

so you just lay there wide awake hoping and praying someone would understand why I am constantly tired,

trying to explain to loved one what I am feeling inside  

afraid of being judged afraid of not being understood 

why did I have to feel this way

 I see smiles I hear laughter but yet I feel so out of place 

Like Sadness and Heartache is all I would ever know

I feel like I am winning a losing a battle 

and where is the fairness in that?

Depression is the thing that killing me inside.

Unknown Truth - N Z Fara

We wake up to the sun rising and watch the sun set, we see the same building every time we open the curtains, watch our neighbors leaves their front door smiling and laughing, living the life. The sky changes from blue to grey and the temperature slowing falls, season change, the fair is colds and the rains came rushing down, something don’t change, they will remain the same but yet everything is not the same, the life you knew is slowly drifting away, I mean the things, we find beautiful, have turned ugly, happiness turned sadness and slowly the darkness replaced the light in your life.

Alone in the way I feel, hiding my thoughts and feeling,

Looking in the glass mirror seeing myself looking at the fake smile covering the scars that inside my heart, there more to someone that meets the eyes, the smile.

-       Nima Z Fara x

Why I Love To Read

Reading a book, is like escaping from reality and envision yourself in the world that that the Author created, you wanna be part of Clary's adventures in the Shadowhunter world and slay demons or be part of the Celaena Sardothien world,  i love to read to escape from my problems and chose a book about love, friendship and bad ass fighting  to save the world kinda books.

Here are pictures of books that i own and love to read, as you can see the genres of books i like to read are fantasy, sci-fi, dystopian, paranormal and contemporary books , a book that makes me laugh or cry or even burst with enjoyment.