Every day I try to be happy and wear a smile on my face, but every time I just can’t bring myself to do it and I don’t know why.
the little things that seem the easiest to do have become the hardest.
it feels like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulder and it's pulling you down
it like somebody is taking over your body, taking over your mind, it likes the rain it comes crashing down when you least expect it and it leaves you in a mess, the feeling is like lighting it shocks you and create fear and panic, makes you feel like a zombie, alive but dead inside, numb and hopeless and sometimes you can’t control it
it’s the things that cause you a nightmare,
it’s the things that live inside you
it’s the things that you can’t get rid off
it’s the things that drive you crazy
it’s the reason you cry yourself to sleep at night
so you just lay there wide awake hoping and praying someone would understand why I am constantly tired,
trying to explain to loved one what I am feeling inside
afraid of being judged afraid of not being understood
why did I have to feel this way
I see smiles I hear laughter but yet I feel so out of place
Like Sadness and Heartache is all I would ever know
I feel like I am winning a losing a battle
and where is the fairness in that?
Depression is the thing that killing me inside.
