So am i back now with a whole new attitude , and new perspective of things, the feeling of being lost and not knowing what to do with my life can be daunting and struggling to find what i am met to be or do in life, i have been real interested in fashion since i can remember, i mean i wanted to become a fashion designer drawing dresses and all that and sooner finding out that i cant draw to save my life, so i just lost hope, i loved films and photography and i love magazine but i was found excuse to say that i wasn't good enough to actually create film or become a writer and lost confidence with myself, i was scared of taking risk.
Until there comes a time where the pressure start to kick from teacher and parents wanted their beloved child to have a degree and have well respected job YES it was time to apply for university , time to pick a course that you want to do for three years and i was stuck like honestly didn't know what my personal statement was going to be about, until i read about criminology and i thought cool, but university is not what is seems, it the most stressful and emotional thing i have ever did in my life and i was just unhappy and sad and was finding the whole experience rubbish, and it just mental brought me down and i was just like a fish lost at sea trying to find it where she belongs, there so many moment where i wanted to drop out of uni and i didn't have the guts to do it because i didn't want to be a quitter or disappoint people, so first went by, the second year and finally the third year and have completed university and I'm so pleased and happy until i realised what the hell am i gonna do now, i mean finding a job is hard enough as it is but i can't visual see myself sitting at a desk and work 9 till 5, its seem so depressing i mean i wanna do something exciting and something that i love to do and wouldn't have to call it work and sometimes i wonder am i too late to start over???
Fashion is always part of me , i have love reading fashion magazine my all time favourite Vogue magazine, i have wanted to write for a fashion magazine or do fashion photography since i like taking photo but as i was growing up i wasn't confident with myself and or my body image and feeling like people will always criticise the way a person look, just because they don't look the girls on Tumblr or on Instagram or in the Magazine and i always doubt myself and i think it time i stop doubting and start believing and actually b eing a dreamer is great but being a actually setting out and become a doer is Awesome!! so take risk and don't let anyone stop and that what i set out to do, to take risk x
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| My Mood-board when i first started my blogging |
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