Anxiety Poem : I HEAR VOICES

So i wrote a poem about my anxiety and all the things that comes with it such as panic attack and paranoia

• I Hear Voices

  Time is standing still but yet I'm still falling,

  falling so deep that i cant seem to stop 

  i hear voice bringing me down but not just any voice 

  but my voice that is tell me to stop don't no 

  
  

  Stop thinking you can do it you cant 

  don't leave the house stay 

  no no no no 

  Life is so complicated 

  why ? 

  
  

  A question that seem to never have an answer 

  As my chest is beating so fast and i can't breath 

  my heart hurting me so bad that its feels like i am dying

  i try to breath ever air that i could get but it seem impossible 

  
  

  my heads start to feel light and my feet cant seem to find the ground 

  my hands are shaking 

  what is happening to me 

  am i going crazy

  and then

  i hear voice

  not just any voice but a familiar voice

  a voices that telling me I'm useless a voice that telling me your I'm worthless 

  why are you even here, what is your purpose 

  
  

  As i walk down the street, the whispers start to become louder 

  as it cancel the voice in head 

  and i start to feels their gaze on the back of head 

  are they talking about me, i quicken my pace

   and then 

  i hear a heartbeat 

  ba-dum, ba-dum, ba-dum 

  faster and faster 

  what is happening 

  my feet start to quicken the pace 

  I'm sprinting in a race

  a race that i am losing in

  then i hear a voice 

  a voice that question 

  everything

  everyone 

  I Hear a voice

  
  

  
  

  

  
  

Who am I ??

who am i ?

Who is Nima Fara?

Who is that girl 

Question i ask myself everyday is who am i, who do i wanna be 

Do i wanna be Rule breaker

A risk taker 

or a person who afraid to even try 

A person who spend her time envy others wishing that she could live her dreams

the question is why can't she ?

answer..... Nothing i got no reason all i have excuses 

of reason not to

Such as i cant afford it,

Walt Disney once said if you can dream , you can do it 

and you know what i dream my dream is to travel around the world with camera 

and be a great photographer that i know i can be 

So 2017 is year or the moment i set out a capture the journey i am embracing and learning from .

2017

SO it is officially 2017 so what is my plan, my resolution. 

2016 was a difficult year and looking back at my 2016 new years resolution i have failed to actually accomplish anything i set to do and while struggling with my depression and anxiety i decided that 2017 was the year i am gonna kick ass and actually take risk and work hard and finally become the person i wanna be.

Here are the list of things i wanna accomplish and try to do

- Start My Weight Loss Journey 

- Save Money 

- Travel to the USA and Canada and Sydney

- Read More Books

- Take control of my depression and anxiety

- Work on my blog more 

- Finally become the person i wanna be 

- Study Photography 

- Buy a camera 

-  work on YouTube Channel 

- Get a New Job!!