20 Mar 2017

Living with depression and anxiety : My Story



What is it like living with depression and anxiety?

So here is my story, I notice that things where a bit off or wasn't right with me when I was the age of 15, I felt so lost, alone and sad all of the time and I didn't know why and I thought it was going to pass and it did for small period of time.
The feelings of hate, loneliness, sadness were always at the back of mind, some days where better than other and most days were the complete worse, but I would always hide these feeling inside and just let it sit there for a number of years

During my time at university these symptoms of depression because worse with a mental breakdown at university library crying my eyes, I was numb, felt like a zombie, just living my life with no motivation. soon after I graduated, feeling a bit trapped and worried about my future and the constant pressure of trying to figure myself out, I started to develop anxiety and being having panic attacks, some days I felt like I was going to die or even leave my house, I just started isolated myself from everybody around me and I often wondered that maybe I’m off noting being alive anymore, even though I never would dare to actually commit suicide, but I would be lying if I said I never thought about it.
 I decided to go to the GP and get help and that when they diagnosed me with depression and anxiety ( panic disorder).
i have to live with learning on how to control my panic attack daily and learn what triggers it and what i can do whenever i am in that situation.

yes you would feel like your dying, like your going to faint, but know that your okey and it would pass and take  a deep breath. 

The symptoms of clinical depression are the following

        Persistent sad, anxious or "empty" mood
        Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
        Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
        Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities.
        Decreased energy, fatigue, feeling "slowed down"
        Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
        Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
        Low appetite and weight loss or overeating and weight gain
        Thoughts of death or suicide, suicide attempts
         Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders and pain for which no other cause can be diagnosed

The symptoms of Generalised anxiety disorder  are the following

        restlessness
        a sense of dread
        feeling constantly "on edge"
        difficulty concentrating
        irritability
Your symptoms may cause you to withdraw from social contact (seeing your family and friends) to avoid feelings of worry and dread.
You may also find going to work difficult and stressful, and may take time off sick. These actions can make you worry even more about yourself and increase your lack of self-esteem.
Physical symptoms of Generalised anxiety disorder
GAD can also have a number of physical symptoms, including:
        dizziness
        tiredness
        a noticeably strong, fast or irregular heartbeat (palpitations)
        muscle aches and tension
        trembling or shaking
        dry mouth
        excessive sweating
        shortness of breath
        stomach ache
        feeling sick
        headache
        pins and needles
        difficulty falling or staying asleep (insomnia)

There a treatments to help you through anxiety and depression, see your local GP for Information on how to get the help you need.
I still go  through depression and anxiety, its learning what triggers it and how you can prevent it from happening and always know that you are not alone.






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